April 30

    It's Saturday night..I had to weigh in on Friday again due to work. I had a slight loss, and by slight, I mean really really slight.. Possibly I may have dropped a few sweat beads off my forhead before stepping on that scale, that's how slight it was. I did lose several inches, and I've gone down a pant size, so that's a plus..

     It dawned on me, that after the last weigh in, I was down almost 14 lbs. I went down a pant size a few weeks later, and honestly, I kind of felt that it was over. No more dieting, I have this down pat now, geez, i've lost weight, so what the heck...WRONG, WRONG, WRONG.. I munched several times a week, I didn't measure my snacks, I consumed a whole bag of jelly beans the week before Easter, I turned in my Groupon for Ben and Jerry's ice cream.. What a great deal that was, Bob and I got $12 worth of ice cream for only $6.. I couldn't pass that up! Of course we went to Cosmic Daves for a 6" sub beforehand. Then there was Easter, with the ham, kilbase, mac and cheese, cookies, candy, and I think there might have been some vegetables out, but all I remember mostly is the cookies and candy.  YIKES... As I look back the past few weeks, I really blew it. 

   Lesson learned...I have to continue to watch my portions, and keep measuring my snacks, and get back in the groove again.
    But..............I justified my eating behaviors because I still worked out everyday....Back to the justification...Gotta stop that as well.

   I'm back on track. Karin suggested that we write down everyday what it is that we've done good towards our weight loss. That's such a great idea! It's easy to look at the negative and beat ourselves up. Soo, today I only ate 2 cookies, instead of the whole box. Seriously, I could've eaten that whole box. They were chocolate chip after all...And as I was driving today to deliver the cookies to the staff, I so easily, and really wanted to eat them all.. no particular reason, boredom maybe, a flashback of a childhood memory? Comfort? I told a friend today, that since I've been in this challenge, I've really been looking at myself. Why I'm the way I am, how I feel about myself, how do I handle boredom, stress, anger, happiness...I'm still trying to figure all these out, and hopefully I will.

      I think most of us are ready for the warmer weather, to be able to get outside more,and continue this journey we're on!!! I'm wishing everyone the best, keep it up, I know I will, and I'm looking forward to seeing everyone in May!! God Bless,

 

Vivian

April 23,

     It's Saturday. I did not have to work today and got to sleep in for the first time in a while! YEAH! Except for the dogs wanting out. I'll take it though! Kept nibbling all this week. I don't know why. Was it the weather? Things have slowed down for me at work, but there's changes ahead at my other job for next year, and that concerns me. I was grabbing diet pop at work instead of my usual tea I make at home and I noticed my stomach was hurting a lot this week, and as I mentioned before I was nibbling again. I really think it's the pop. So today I'm starting to drink my one cup of tea in the morning, and that's it for the day. I really think this will help. I did shrug off working out a couple of days this week also. I wasnt' able to get to Perry, and I could've worked out at home but didn't. I had a good work out Thursday and if felt good! I'm getting motivated again. We weigh in again next week, and I'm hoping that I at least lost a pound or two, but I know the  number will be small this time around. That's my fault..I need to step up to the plate. Hopefully the weather will warm up and I can get outside and ride and hike again!!!
      I think since I went down a pant size, I felt that I was done, and I could just be done with everything. If I keep this up, I'll be back in my fat pants in no time.

      I see Hannah this week for my work out, we had to cancel last week. That will be good for me. Sooo, I'm done writing, I have a treadmill in the other room that's calling my name!! Have a great week everyone, keep up the good work, and we can and will do this!!!! 

Vivian

April 17

Ok, It's Sunday!! I'm glad it's a new week, last week was super busy for me, to say the least. I started to understand my weight gain over the years, because I definately reverted back to my old eating habits. At least this time I was munching on good food, so I didn't gain any weight! But I went back to the grab and go again, instead of sitting down eating meals. I honestly didn't have the time to sit down, but it's something I'll need to concentrate on in the future, because I'm going to be super busy again in a couple of weeks...

     GOOD NEWS!!  I finally got up my courage to go shopping. I did need new pants, mine were getting pretty baggy, but honestly I was scared to  try on a smaller size. What if they didn't fit? BUT THEY DID!! I went down another size!!! They're snug, but I can wear them! I was amazingly happy!! I haven't fit into a size 14 for 30 yrs.! I know I have a way to go with the weight loss, but I'm re-motivated, to continue this journey I'm on. I'm doing this for me. I've been doing a lot of thinking this past month or so, and I'm always trying to please those around me. I think of others feelings, I'm always wanting to make things better, help whenever I can, find a solution, help the underdog, but this time, I'm doing something for me. It's about me, for me....I deserve this....we all do....always...Continuing to wish everyone the best. I get to work out with Hannah this week, I'm actually looking forward to it!!!!  God Bless Everyone!!!
 

Vivian

April 13

         Happy Wednesday! This is a busy busy time for me, and I've found myself slipping back to my old ways of "grab and go" meals. They're from home, but I'm just grabbing whatever I can to satisfy my hunger. Not good....I need to take time for myself to sit and eat. Even if it's only 10 minutes, I need to do that. I just started this at lunchtime, and I do feel satisfied and full. I'm watching what I eat stil and my portion controls. I'm faithfully working out daily, and 3x a week, are my big workouts at Perry. I go see Hanna next week for another training session so that will help also.

    Sunday I had rode my bike 8 miles. It felt good. It's funny, you don't feel the mountains in the roadway when you're driving a car, but I definately noticed them riding my bike up and down them! Ok, I'm riding on a back road near lake Erie. I may........... have exagerated...... just a tad on the mountain part, but in my defense, I was riding against the wind as well!! But it still felt good to ride, and I did it!!!!

 After that I had told Bob to go fly a kite...seriously... we went and flew a kite! It was pretty windy, and much fun! Haven't done that a quite a few years!! And it was a workout, mostly for me, I was the one chasing it down the beach to help get it back in the air!!!

   My dilemma I had a couple of weeks ago, seemed to have worked itself out. So my life is back to normal once again. I was at my dad's 81st birthday party Saturday, and I had gone in the kitchen for something, and I heard my name being called, and sure enough, it was the m& ms's calling me!! So I had to oblige, and eat 3 of them. When I went back out to sit next to Bob, he looked at me, and said...Do I smell M& M's?? Busted...I'm glad he called me out on it, because I was certain to have gone back and have more..Thank you Bob!!

    Started to feel like a slacker the past couple of days. Maybe it's just long work days, but I really had to force myself this morning to get out of bed and workout. I did it, and I felt better afterwards for it, but boy what a struggle it was for me.. Tomorrow is another day.. If I can get through this week, things will smooth out and slow down for a couple of weeks, that will be nice..

   I'm hopeful that I'll have another good weight loss at the end of the month, along with everyone else. It's going to be easier to work out, be it in the yard, or just being able to get outdoors! I still wish everyone much success, and keep up the good work!! We can do this! And we are!!!!
 

Vivian

April 6. It's Wednesday! I"m on vacation from my one job this week, so I'm able to get more stuff done at my other job! What a relief! It's crunch time for me, with lots to do and I'm running out of time! It just dawned on me, I pretty much started my nibbling again this week. I'm stopping that today. it's final...I've been so busy, I started getting back in my old routine, not good. So today, I'll pack a lunch, and my snack. I have leftovers for dinner, so that won't be a problem. I'm still working out everyday! I either walk 2-3 miles on my treadmill each morning before work. I'm still going to Perry 3x a week for my hard work out, and I FEEL GOOD!! 

    I was so glad to see everyone's weight loss in the paper. We're all doing great! As long as we're losing, it's a good thing!!! I love the motivated e-mails we send to each other, it's good to hear, and we're all in this together!!  I really believe once the weather breaks for good, we'll all have bigger numbers next month! It's so hard to get motivated, when it's so yucky outside.. come on spring, we're waiting!!!!! 
 

Vivian