Wow!! First day of the Lighten up challenge! YIKES! What have I gotten myself into this time??!! I am pathetic, I know this. I woke up this morning and took the dogs out, and saw that it was snowing really hard, and it was then that I had a glimmer of hope, that we would have a "snow day" today from having to go in and get weighed in the first time. Then it dawned on me, only schools for the most part get snow days..rats..........guess I'll have to go. I even checked my phone after my shower, "just in case they called to cancel due to the weather". Pathetic, I know...Then I had a thought, that when I arrived, that they somehow would've made a mistake, and they would tell me that I'm not in the contest after all, I know, wishful thinking...I'm in, this is it... Accoutability at it's best.. This is what I need, I know.. I have no more excuses to remain "pleasantly plump" anymore.. Geez, who am I kidding. I'm FAT,, there, I said it... Accountability..

    I really enjoyed meeting the other contestants, and Jamie the owner of Slim and Fit. Everyone shared their stories on what we're planning on doing to lose weight, and Jamie said we can call him anytime we have questions, about working out, weight loss or nutrition.. I really want to call him and ask if I can substitute a Snickers bar for my protein for the day??!! 
    Justification at it's best. I'm not a pro, but I'm up there with the best. Why I deserve the food I eat, Why I don't work out everyday, And I'm still carying around my baby fat from having my children. Ok, my baby is going to be 24yrs. old this year.. That excuse doesn't work anymore. People stopped asking me a while ago "when I was due" because it's apparant, that I'm definately over the child bearing age...I'm FAT, bottom line.

    After the weigh in, it was 3pm, I hadn't had lunch yet, and I had to run to the store. As I was standing there in the check out line, 10 excuses came to me as to why I should buy a candy bar. This would be the last one I'd eat until after the challenge, I didn't eat lunch, I had a small breakfast, I'm really hungry, and this would curb my appetite until dinner. Then someone told me today, that if my children were in a contest, and they cheated, I would be upset with them. I'd lecture them about honesty, and following the rules, and how could they cheat?! Geez, I wish I hadn't heard that today, because this is a contest, and I don't, no, I won't cheat. I would expect no less from my children, I have to set the example. They're all rooting for me, I have their full support, and the support of my boyfriend Bob. I told him to call me on the carpet if he sees I'm not following the plan. Of course, he did tonite. I explained to him, that when you go out to dinner, I should ask for a box right away, split my dinnner in 1/2 right from the start. He waited patiently, as I did NOT ask for the box right away. I was hungry!! Remember the no lunch thing?! I did eat the vegetables, 1/2 of the slice of bread, and I did finally ask for a box for the remainder of the turkey and the rest of the bread. He looked at me with those caring and loving eyes, and said, "I was wondering if you were ever going to ask for a box," It was then that I really wanted to lovingly slap him one.. but he was right.,,, this is going to be a long 6 mos. And Bob, I do love you, so if  at sometime I may say something, or do something to hurt you, I'm going to apologize now right from the start, things could get ugly at some point, I'm just warning you now!!! This is the first day of the rest of my life... Wish me luck, I think I'm going to need it!!

 

Vivian